Nothing here either...I've been talking to a chick, but I'm just going to be myself, which hasn't scared her away thus far. On the down turn, I still run into the ex about every day I'm at work, since we work the same days (and shift). At least we don't work in the same department. Sometimes it doesn't bother me, but others I get depressed as hell.
yeah living in a small town and going to a colleges that are like a mile apart i run into her, and same thing, sometimes i'm fine and other times it completely ruins my day. Yeah, well everything calmed down at least, i don't talk to her anymore, but its been almost a year and i still think about my ex all the time. LOl, yeah i've like had five attempts so far, two had girlfriends, or three did but the third one was crazy, then the fifth one just turned me down, lol. So yeah its been rough, but i am kinda pursuing this one girl to so i'll see how that goes. Just trying to stay positive rate now, as hard as that is.
There have been some changes with me. I never took any tension when I was in love. I was just like livin in her dreams. I never used to go out or very seldom. I never bothered to learn driving a car. I never bothered to wear cool dresses while goin anywhere outside. Never used to and so...... But after that break off... Now I have got my Licence, Car...I have changed my livin style completely. Changed the way of talking with the girls. Before I used to think that girls care about your emotions and jst be polite with them. But now I just speak watever comes in ma mouth and they feel happy. Earlier, my gf was the only thing 24/7 in my mind but now I think about many other things.. I have got lot more confidence then I used to have in me.. All plans changed of living/going back in India. I have decided to stay in NZ now and forever... I have made some GF's and ya those which I used to say her from my hear now saying just to attract these girls. Oh Yea, these f*kers really sucks money out of you..Now I realised the truth. lolz Everything looks so kewl when I am with someone or thinking about something else but whenever I sits alone(Alteast 1-2 times in Two weeks) and think about myself then I think Y did this happened to me.. Myself as well, still love her miss her. But my logics doesnt wants her back...And I m never happy if i dont see anything going with my logics. So she has no more place in my life...
